Ever since my daughter died last November I have alternated between periods of intense pain and desperate distraction. It has taken me this long to even say or write the word "died." It sounds too final and real. I don't really know how to go on.
So of course I don't know what I'm doing.
If you've read my long and meandering blog post from July you know that I want to write about Caety. I still feel like part of my purpose is to finish the book I started writing the day she was diagnosed with cystic fibrosis at three months old. And I want to share her writing with the world as well.
But I can't bring myself to enter that dark space.
So I distract myself with TV shows new and old, and write about other things, occasionally slipping in a word or two about my much-missed daughter because sometimes it just leaks out.
Most recently, a piece that started out innocently enough - Friday Favorites: What Movies Do You Love And Why? - quickly turned into a mini memorial. I should've seen it coming. Luckily, the tagline of the site I'm writing on lately is Speak Freely. Write Your World. That works for me.
So, since I am distracting myself with writing on this new addictive platform, I thought I'd share some of my latest work with readers of my blog (all eight of you).
Those of you who are writers or fans of earning money at home might be interested in these essays about my new adventure as a Bubbler (yes, you read that right):
Learning My Audience On Bubblews (And Other Thoughts About Writing)
It Takes Me Forever To Write A Bubblews Post
Sunday Share: Two Pin-Worthy Pages
I've also written several articles about relationships. Here are some of my favorites:
The Get A Good Relationship List
Relationship Ready And Receiving The Gifts Of The Wait
Do Women Really Have Too Much Masculine Energy Or Is It Something Else?
The complete list of all my Bubblews posts so far can be found here. If you're interested in writing for Bubblews, too, and want to help me earn twenty whole cents, you can use my referral link.
Thanks for reading. I appreciate it more than you know. ♥
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